Index (by Brett Robinson)
(A) Page-By-Page Index:
i JOURNALS
ii What to spend money on
iii JOURNALS
iv Publishing information
v "Don't read my diary when I'm gone" introduction
vi Blank
vii JOURNALS
viii Blank
01 Letter: to Dale Crover
02 Letter: to Dale Crover (cont.)
03 Letter: to Dale Crover (cont.)
04 Artwork: Iron Maiden mascot
05 "The Late 1980's"
06 "Soundtrack to HR puffnstuff"
07 Artwork: Guitar chords
08 Letter: to record label
09 Notebook cover: "NIRVANA"
10 Review of NIRVANA show
11 Notebook cover: "If you read you'll judge"
12 Notes on driver's license test
13 Notes on driver's license test
14 Artwork: creature pen sketch
15 Letter: to Dave Foster
16 Letter: to Dave Foster (cont.)
17 Letter: to Dave Fosterv (cont.)
18 "Reversion relapse"
19 Letter: to Mark Lanegan
20 Letter: to Mark Lanegan (cont)
21 "Just Before I fall asleep and when I'm really bored I ..."
22 above continued ("Again amongst the water or tears ...")
23 above continued ("Uncertainty like opening your ...")
24 Artwork: "Mr Moustache"
25 Recounting of teenage years and first sexual experience
26 Recounting of teenage years and first sexual experience (cont.)
27 Recounting of teenage years and first sexual experience (cont.)
28 Letter: to record label
29 "Lance Link"
30 Letter: to Jesse Reed
31 Letter: to Jesse Reed (cont.)
32 Artwork: "Reed & Maloy"
33 NIRVANA bio
34 Printed NIRVANA bio
35 Printed NIRVANA bio
36 Letter: to Mark Lanegan
37 NIRVANA bio
38 "Things the band needs to do"
39 Rules of the road
40 Artwork: Burnman
41 Curriculum Vitae
42 Curriculum Vitae
43 "Pine Tree Janitorial Service"
44 "My lyrics"
45 Lyrics: Downer
46 Lyrics: Floyd the Barber
47 Lyrics: Paper Cuts
48 Lyrics: Paper Cuts
49 Lyrics: Hairspray Queen
50 Lyrics: Mexican Seafood
51 Marketing ideas for "Sheep"
52 Marketing ideas for "Sheep"
53 Lyrics: Pen Cap Chew
54 Lyrics: Aero Zeppelin
55 Kurt on Melvins
56 Kurt on Melvins (cont.)
57 Kurt on Melvins (cont.)
58 Kurt on Melvins (cont.)
59 "The MeLVINS are alive"
60 Melvins interview questions
61 Melvins interview questions (cont.)
62 Melvins interview questions (cont.)
63 Letter: to Dale Crover
64 Letter: to Dale Crover (cont.)
65 "Touch 'N' Go Demo" track listing
66 Notes on recording studios and costs
67 Mix tape song list
68 Artwork: "The Smiley's"
69 "Bitching about prog-rock"
69 "First of all I enjoy your show"
70 "Monte Vista"
71 "Monte Vista"
72 Mix tape song list
73 "In and out" - Kurt on sex
74 "A triumphant victory for mankind"
75 "The Story"
76 "The Story"
77 Notes on re-recording the Dale Crover demo
78 "The Story"
79 Mix tape song list
80 Album design for "Humans Are Dumb"
81 "Critic goes God"
82 "Critic goes God"
83 "Critic goes God"
84 Mix tape song list
85 Artwork: "Elvis Cooper"
86 Lyrics: Aneurysm
87 Lyrics: Sappy
88 Lyrics: Verse Chorus Verse
89 Artwork: "Crybaby Jerkins"
90 Lyrics: Dive
91 Letter to Eugene Kelly
92 Letter to Eugene Kelly
93 Top 29 albums list
94 "I am threatened by ridicule"
95 "I like punk rock more than anything in the whole wide world"
96 "I like punk rock more than anything in the whole wide world" (cont.)
97 "I like..."
98 "I like..." (cont.)
99 "I like..." (cont.)
100 "I like..." (cont.)
101 "I like..." (cont.)
102 "I am now in my sad stage, before it was naive hate"
103 T-shirt order sheet design
104 "A manic depressive on smack" - Kurt's rules for living
105 "Over the Edge" and Kurt's youth
106 Artwork: Hung football player / soldier
107 "Besides financial security it really isn't that wise of a profession"
108 Lyrics: "Primary" On A Plain & All Apologies
109 Lyrics: Dumb
110 "I'm not an artist"
111 "Art is sacred"
112 Artwork: 3 figure outline
113 "I have a lot to say but ill leave that to you"
114 "Im not well read, but when I do read, I read well"
115 "You can't rationalize spirituality"
116 Album design for "Nevermind"
117 Artwork: pumpkin-head on cross with crows and sperm
118 Album design for "Nevermind" - "NIRVANA says thanks to..."
119 Album design for "Nevermind" - "Your vote counts"
120 "I started it first"
121 "Ideas for Video" + recipes
122 "Kill the Rockefellers"
123 Album design for "Nevermind"
124 Artwork: hand, knees, and foot sketch + "Here I am inspired to write only because im pissed off."
125 "Chemicals are the thing of today"
126 Lyrics: Opinion
127 "Mandatory breeding laws SUE ME mandatory abortion"
128 "I am a male. Age 23 and Im lactating."
129 "Homage or ripoff?"
130 "I am in absolute and total support of:"
131 Letter: to Eugene Kelly
132 Letter: to Eugene Kelly (cont.)
133 Artwork: "NIRVANA Sings... songs of DEVO WIPERS VASELINES & NIRVANA"
134 List of possible producers for "Nevermind"
135 Artwork: various items including KKK members, lightbulb, and pizza slice
136 Lyrics: Smells Like Teen Spirit
137 Lyrics: Smells Like Teen Spirit
138 Lyrics: Smells Like Teen Spirit
139 Artwork, Video: scenes for first verse of "In Bloom" video
140 Lyrics: Lithium
141 Lyrics: Smells Like Teen Spirit
142 Lyrics: In Bloom
143 "I saw Jesus's face in wood panelling"
144 Lyrics: Verse Chorus Verse
145 Lyrics: Come As You Are
146 Lyrics: Lounge Act
147 Lyrics: On A Plain
148 "Needed"
149 Notebook cover: "Verse Chorus Verse CHorus Solo Chorus Chorus"
150 Kurt recounting early music listening experiences as a child
151 Kurt recounting early music listening experiences as a child (cont.)
152 Artwork: Assassinating marching Ku Klux Klan members
153 Notebook cover: "No Good"
154 Album design for "Nevermind"
155 Album design for "Nevermind"
156 NIRVANA bio
157 NIRVANA bio
158 NIRVANA bio
159 NIRVANA bio
160 Video: Smells Like Teen Spirit
161 "I had a cigarette in my hand, I thought it was a pen"
162 "His jaw dropped"
163 Top 9 albums list
164 Letter: to journalist
165 Letter: to journalist (cont.)
166 Letter: to journalist (cont.)
167 Letter: to Tobi Vail
168 Letter: to Tobi Vail (cont.)
169 Letter: to Tobi Vail (cont.)
170 Letter: to Tobi Vail (cont.)
171 Letter: to Tobi Vail (cont.)
172 Letter: to Tobi Vail (cont.)
173 "There is a small percentage of the population who were BORN with the ability to detect injustice."
174 "The larger percent..."
175 "To be read as poetry"
176 "We're playing the corporate game and we're playing as best as we can"
177 Video: Come As You Are
178 Kurt on Melvins
179 "Its hard to decipher the difference between a sincere entertainer and an honest swindler"
180 Artwork: seahorse, creature, lightbulb
181 "I feel like a dork writing about myself like this"
182 "We've made a way better commercial record than Poison"
183 "Just let me have my very own unexplainable rare stomach disease"
184 "I am the product of 7 months of..."
185 "OH THE GUILT THE GUILT"
186 "DE_JA VOO- DOO"
187 Lyrics: Frances Farmer Will Have Her Revenge on Seattle
188 Lyrics: Heart Shaped Box
189 "I wish there was someone I could ask for advice"
190 "There are more bad rock journalists than there are bad rock bands"
191 "Thanks for your second rate Freudian evaluation on my minds present state"
192 "Sometimes I wonder if I could very well be the luckiest boy in the world"
193 Lyrics: Dumb
194 "I'd be better off if I kept my mouth shut"
195 "I went on a 3 week drug binge"
196 Artwork: "The many moods of kurdt kobain"
197 Kurt explaining his stomach problem and relation to his drug usage
198 Kurt explaining his stomach problem and relation to his drug usage
199 Letter: to MTV
200 Lyrics: Radio Friendly Unit Shifter
201 Lyrics: Radio Friendly Unit Shifter
202 Top 40 album list "Personal preference"
203 Artwork: Postcard to Ian Dickson and Nikki McClure
204 Artwork: self portrait collage
205 Notebook cover: "washed up, has been, drug addicts"
206 Guitar design
207 Guitar design
208 Guitar design
209 Guitar design
210 Guitar design
211 Guitar design
212 Lyrics: All Apologies
213 Letter: to Donald Cobain
214 Letter: to Donald Cobain (cont.)
215 Fax from Steve Albini / Notes on microphones
216 "Mr Producer" Notes on recordings
217 Notes on recording Melvins
218 Album design for "I Hate Myself and I Want to Die"
219 Letter: to Simon Fair
220 Letter: to Simon Fair (cont.)
221 Top 10 album list - "a handful of very honorable and sincere music lovers who are posing as the enemy"
222 In Utero liner notes: Serve the Servants, SCentless Apprentice, Heart Shaped Box
223 In Utero liner notes: Rape Me, Frances Farmer Will Have Her Revenge on Seattle, Dumb, Very Ape, Radio Friendly Unit Shifter
224 In Utero liner notes: tourette's, dedications
225 In Utero liner notes: All Apologies, Milk It, Serve the Servants
226 In Utero liner notes: Serve the Servants continued
227 Video: Live! Tonight! Sold Out!
228 Album design for "In Utero"
229 "I like..."
230 List of independant record labels
231 Video: Heart Shaped Box
232 "For me punk rock is dead"
233 "I thought I would let the world know how much I love people"
234 "No one should be denied the privledge to create"
235 "Maybe I just tried to let the world know how much I love myself."
236 Mix tape song list
237 Letter: to Courtney Love
238 Letter: to Courtney Love (cont.)
239 Top 15 album list - "The new improved revised NIRVANA list of albums..."
240 "I have been forced to become a reclusive rock star"
241 "All conspiracy theories are very very real"
242 "All journalists are at the mercy of their editors"
243 Video: "Milk It or Scentless Apprentice"
244 Video: Heart Shaped Box
245 Notebook cover: "Examples of herpes gestationis"
246 Kurt on rock journalism
247 Kurt on rock journalism (cont.)
248 Artwork: The Thanksgiving scroll
249 "I have had 4 four notebooks filled with two years worth of poetry and personal writings and lyrics stolen from me"
250 Kurt on hippies
251 "I played the snare drum in school band from grades five to nine"
252 "In order to become a big famous rock star I would need to write my very own songs"
253 "The guitar is based on mathematics"
254 "At the end of your rope at the end of the rainbow"
255 "Internally destroy the enemy by posing as or using the enemy"
256 "Ideas"
257 Top 50 album list
258 Artwork: seahorse giving birth
259 Kurt on politics and abortion
260 "Cartoons, saxophones, and jazz drumming do not mix with rock and roll"
261 T-shirt seahorse design
262 "For boys"
263 Kurt on rock music
264 Video: Rape Me
265 Video: Rape Me
266 Letter to: The Advocate
267 Kurt on 1993
268 Letter to: The Advocate
269 Kurt on drug use and addiction
270 Kurt on drug use and addiction (cont.)
271 Kurt on Sylvester Stallone
272 Kurt on Sylvester Stallone (cont.)
273 NOTES
274 Blank
275-80 Includes accounts of select pages and transcriptions of a few particularly hard to read entries
(B) Thematic Index:
(1) Album & Video Concepts:
Music video designs: 117, 121, 139, 160, 177, 227, 231, 243, 244, 264, 265
Album designs: 51, 52, 81, 89, 116, 118, 119, 123, 133, 145, 153, 154, 228
Biographies: 28, 33-5, 37, 156-9
Live show notes: 118, 254
T-shirt designs: 103, 117, 261
Love Buzz 7": 34, 35
Bleach: 33-5, 81, 157
Blew EP: 157
Go Team 7": 73
Sliver / Dive 7": 119, 157
Nevermind: 89, 116, 123, 145, 154, 155
Hormoaning: 131-3
Incesticide: 232
In Utero: 215, 218, 20, 222-6, 228
Unplugged: 243
Live! Tonight! Sold Out!: 227
Bootlegs: 157
(2) References To Songs:
About A Girl: 118
Aero Zeppelin: 65, 78
All Apologies: 123, 225
Aneurysm: 227
Annorexorcist: 78, 178
Beans 65
Been A Son: 89, 123, 157
Beeswax: 78
Bikini Twilight: 73
Big Cheese: 34, 35, 65, 78
Blew: 78, 118, 157
Come As You Are: 123, 145, 154, 177, 227, 252
Curmudgeon: 260
D-7: 131-3, 137
Dive: 89, 118, 157, 227
Downer: 78
Drain You: 145, 154
Dumb: 89, 123, 223
Endless, Nameless: 123
Erectum: 78
Floyd The Barber: 65, 78
Frances Farmer Will Have Her Revenge On Seattle: 223
Hairspray Queen: 65, 78
Heart-Shaped Box: 222, 231, 244
If You Must: 03
Immodium: 89, 116, 118, 123, 145, 154
In Bloom: 89, 116, 118, 123, 131-3, 139, 145, 154, 227
Lithium: 89, 116, 118, 123, 145, 154
Lounge Act: 123, 145, 153, 154
Love Buzz: 34, 35, 65, 78, 157
Mexican Seafood: 78
Milk It: 226, 243
Molly's Lips: 73, 131-3, 137, 227
Montage Of Heckv 65
Negative Creep: 118
Oh, The Guilt: 185, 260v
Old Age: 154
On A Plain: 123, 154
Paper Cuts: 65, 78
Pay To Play: 89, 116, 118, 123, 145
Pen Cap Chew: 65, 78
Pennyroyal Tea: 223
Polly: 89, 116, 118, 123, 145, 154
Radio Friendly Unit Shifter: 223
Rape Me: 223, 264, 265
Sappy: 89, 116, 118, 123, 154
Scentless Apprentice: 222, 227, 243
School: 118
Scratch It Out: 73
Seasons In the Sun: 150
Serve The Servants: 222, 225, 226
Sifting: 227
Sliver: 116, 123, 157
Smells Like Teen Spirit: 123, 145, 154, 160, 227, 252
Someday (Doll Parts??): 123
Something In The Way: 116, 123, 154, 254
Son of a Gun: 132, 133
Spank Thru: 34, 35, 65, 78, 123
Stain: 157
Stay Away: 154
Territorial Pissings: 116, 123, 145, 154, 254
Token Eastern Song: 89
tourette's: 224
Turnaround: 85, 131-3, 133
Vendetagainst: 78
Verse Chorus Verse: 89, 116, 123, 154
Very Ape: 223
Weirdo: 78
(3) Lyric Sheets:
Aero Zeppelin: 54
All Apologies: 108, 212
Aneurysm: 86
Come As You Are: 145
Dive: 90
Downer: 45
Dumb: 109, 193
Floyd The Barber: 46
Frances Farmer Will Have Her Revenge On Seattle: 187
Hairspray Queen: 49
Heart-Shaped Box: 138, 188
In Bloom: 139, 142
Lithium: 140
Lounge Act: 146
Mexican Seafood: 50
On A Plain: 143, 147, 254
Opinion: 126
On A Plain: 108
Paper Cutsv 47-8
Pen Cap Chew: 53
Radio Friendly Unit Shifter: 200, 201, 242, 254
Sappy: 87
Smells Like Teen Spirit: 136-8, 141
Territorial Pissings: 123
Verse Chorus Verse: 88, 143, 144
(4) Performances Mentioned:
Seattle 1988 with DOA + Butthole Surfers (10.24.88?)
06/23/89 (labeled 1989): 227 (Sifting)
11/89 Berlin
05/29/91
08/23/91: 227 (Molly's Lips)
11/25/91: 227 (Aneurysm, Come As You Are)
11/28/91 (Top Of The Pops): 227 (Smells Like Teen Spirit)
10/30/92: 227 (Aneurysm)
01/23/93: 227 (Scentless Apprentice)
(5) Artwork Pages:
Cartoons: 24, 32, 40, 68, 89, 139
Collages: 34, 35, 196, 203, 204, 248
Guitar & related: 07, 129, 193, 216, 206-11, 251
Self Portrait: 196, 204
Sketches: 01, 04, 14, 43, 51, 81, 86, 93, 103, 106, 112, 117, 119, 121, 124, 133, 135, 152, 154, 155, 163, 177, 180, 193, 201, 205, 245, 254, 258, 260, 261
Primarily sketches: 4, 14, 86, 106, 112, 117, 180, 258
(6) Miscellany Pages:
Notebook covers: 9, 11, 153, 205, 245
Printed Pages: 34, 35, 59, 185, 186